Details: I seem to be a "confused" person since I was a child. My family conditions have always been poor, but generally speaking, my parents have taken care of everything. Even though I am poorer than other families and have not enjoyed anything, I have not suffered much and my psychological endurance is also very poor. I did not strive as hard as other children from poor families. Although I had good grades since I was a child, I did not perform well in the college entrance examination in the end: no one in my family could give me advice when I filled in the application form, and I was finally transferred to a very ordinary second-tier university. I was not particularly hardworking during school, and I did not pass the judicial examination (that"s what it was called at the time). I originally planned to find a law firm after graduation to work while taking the exam, but I interviewed many law firms at the time, and none of them accepted me. Then I went to a consulting company and started my career, and I did not take the exam again until I became unemployed. I started taking the exam in 2021.

I quit my job for four years and feel that my life has been wasted. Work IT workplace Good article sharing No. 1
I have been working hard in the first few years of my work, but my starting point is not high and I don’t have any savings plan. I love to eat and buy, and I only save a little at the end of the year. In 2018, I joined the company before I quit my job, and in 2019, I got a new leader. The new leader didn"t know much about our business, but he loved to participate and make requests. My way was to do what I could do and listen to what I couldn"t do.
Later, due to the adjustment of the company"s structure, the "core module" of our business was moved to the subsidiary, which meant that we had to ask the subsidiary to carry out this work, but the subsidiary also had the person in charge of the corresponding sector, and they were unwilling to merge the interests of the two companies in this sector, so I entered the stage of "a good cook can"t cook without rice".
The timeline came to 2020. Due to the sudden arrival of YQ, I entered a psychological panic. When I was still in my hometown, I kept arguing with my parents, and Weibo was full of negative news. I often felt a sense of desolation in my heart.
After resuming work, the leader communicated with me. He believed that my current lack of "performance" was caused by my passive resistance, so I actively entered the working state. I explained the current difficulties and problems to him many times. He believed that without the help of the "core module", I should be able to conquer a piece of the country. But this work is essentially a work of overall planning, coordination and integration. Without a "foundation", it is impossible to complete the closed loop.
After observing for a while, he asked me for a three-month "probation period". My first question at that time was, can we solve the problem of this "core module" being used by two companies? He said that the company has its own plan. I knew that this was an irreconcilable contradiction. Also, because I already had 180,000 yuan in savings at that time, I quit my job.
After quitting my job for four years, I feel that my life has been wasted. Work IT workplace Good article sharing The second picture
The year I quit my job was 2020. The situation of Piaopiao and Jiji was very good. I made a few thousand yuan. You all know the story later. Piaopiao lost more than 10,000 yuan and Jiji lost more than 20,000 yuan (as of October 2022, I sold my stocks when I ran out of money)
I quit my job in 2020 in the second half of the year. At that time, I really thought about looking for a job after the new year and taking a break first. Life was so good at that time. I had money in my hands and didn’t have to go to work. I slept until I woke up naturally, went out for afternoon tea, and checked in at delicious restaurants everywhere. In fact, I have liked to enjoy myself since I was a child, but I didn’t have the opportunity before. The opportunity came suddenly, the poor became rich, and the Piaopiao and Jiji were still rising at that time. I felt so good that I spent money a little lavishly.
In 2021, I didn’t have a job. I dared to go home for the New Year. All my money was tied up, so I just lived in a rented house. But life with savings is never too bad. Later, I started looking for a job. At that time, I really didn’t feel that I was old. Although there were fewer interviews, I still had them, but I didn’t get any offers. For our position, the client company has only three or four people in large companies, and there may be only one carrot position for a small one. There have always been more monks than meat. This year, my parents started to urge me to get married. I was under a lot of pressure. If I couldn’t do it, I would eat a lot. I would just eat two or three takeouts. I was really like a salted fish. I did two private jobs and earned 8,000.
The savings crisis happened in 2022. I went out after the New Year and was about to be inspected for three or four days. There were checkpoints everywhere. You have to scan the code wherever you go. I entered a panic of the unknown. Although my savings were in urgent need, I was not eager to find a job because I was a little afraid to go out and contact people. So although I was looking for a job this year, due to market reasons and situation reasons, I rarely had appointments. I did a private job for more than 3,000. In October 2022, the situation in Guangzhou was serious. A neighbor in our community had that, and we were taken to a remote hotel in Huizhou for isolation. To be honest, I said at the beginning that my psychological endurance was very poor. During that time, I was really anxious to the peak. Not long after I came out, I was let go, and everyone was going through a period of the sheep.
After the 2023 Spring Festival, I was ready to go, and I went back to Guangzhou on the fifth day of the New Year. I was in the state of the state, and I was ready to fight for a job. But before March was over, and my work hadn"t improved, my family member passed away. It was very, very sudden. He suddenly went to the ICU, and then he never woke up or came out again. This was a blow to our whole family. It happened so suddenly that we didn"t have time to think about anything before we finished the funeral. Then there was a long period of acceptance...
What a miserable life. Now I recall many words that I used to despise, such as personality determines destiny, such as people can only make money within the scope of cognition, such as how can people not work... I can"t bear hardship, not the hardship of overtime, not the hardship of physical strength, but the hardship of delayed gratification. I am not tough enough, and I want to escape when there are difficulties and want to collapse when the pressure is greater.
More than ten years after graduation, what am I doing? It"s the middle and late stages of my life. From a positive perspective, I should find a job and make some money quickly. From a negative perspective, I actually think that it"s just like this if I continue to live. It"s just like this. I"m a bit like Le Ying, so I cried a lot in the cinema, but I don"t think I have a chance to win once.